Yes I believe it is soul destroying. I know that leaving can be intense but it's worth it. I'm going to be direct about what I think people should leave what they know is wrong at any cost because staying gives power to the organization. It contributes to their ability to hurt more people it feeds their hunger and it allows them to continue.
We are fortunate to live in a time that they can't torture and kill us for our dissent but I firmly believe that if they were in power and could get away with it we would be hunted and executed. Why wait for god and the angels when you can do it now would be their cry.